Hey guys. Long time no talk kinda.
Prepare for LONG STORY.
I'd like to say thanks to some messages and notes that I get from you guys with random kind words and messages. I try to reply to all of them but I currently have about 50+ notes and about 12000 messages to look through @v@;
I'd like to talk about my absence because I've been getting just a ton of questions on //ARE YOU BACK//
I don't like dA anymore. For the longest time I started to just despise dA. It's not what it use to be and the staff has gotten progressively worse. I see nothing but smut, bases, //INSPIRATIONAL TUMBLR POSTS//, and just over all disappointment on the front page and just in a lot of groups in general. So I don't really like to post my art here just because of the community. This is also why I refuse to buy a dA subscription. :I
I also have been really hm. how to word this. @v@
I don't wanna say I have no confidence but. Idk I just feel really uncomfortable posting my art now?
Due to some people who will remain unnamed but also because of how I personally feel about my art now. I'm not really sure
how to word it, sorry. But just take it as it is.
I also really despise my old artwork so I hid all of it haha. If I have done a commission for you and you'd like your image just let me know and I'll provide a copy for you.
But about coming back. I never really LEFT. Like, I'm still around I just don't really like to post anymore. Sometimes you'll see me post journals about livestreams and ect on here. Which is really rare but I try to post it whenever I remember haha.
I just don't really have time anymore to just devote myself to drawing and making videos all the time. I think I've mentioned this before in a few journals but I honestly hate drawing @W@ I don't really practice and I don't put much effort anymore unless someone commissions me for something. I just don't find any joy in it like I did a few years ago. My first year on dA I really loved drawing and just after a while I just started to hate it slowly. Which is why I feel really uncomfortable when people ask me for drawing advice ect. The internet is the biggest tool at your disposal. If people can find out how to make bombs; I'm pretty sure you can figure out how to draw a hand, color, line art ect.
But yeah. I post when I want and I post what I want usually. But I'm mainly focused on my personal life.
Artemis and I will be getting our own house soon and after a few months we talked about possibly getting married.
So I have a lot of other things to focus on rather than animu arts.
I appreciate all you guys sending me nice messages and checking in on me now and then. It means a lot!
Here are some places you guys can find me and where I update frequently.
[link] <- personal
[link] < - art ( i usually reblog others art, and art references for people)
You can also find me doing livestreams on youtube on occasion - > youtube.com/missdreachu
PS I recently went to Disneyland with Tina for like 4 days and we had a blast!